Brenda’s July 19th Blog

I’m going to try to write this blog in 10 minutes.

Update: I spent those 10 minutes solely on thinking. 

I tried to conjure up some sentences I wouldn’t cringe at 20+ years from now if I were to reread them. After a few seconds I realized: in order to accomplish that, I would have to constrain myself within the bounds of my 17 year old mind; I would have to not grow at all. That would suck!!👎🏽👎🏽 One is meant to cringe at their past because it shows growth. I think. 

 I’ve grown a lot at SSP. Being around such amazing people that also BELIEVE IN ME kind of changed my life🤷🏽‍♀️. I am really sad about having to leave such an amazing group of people. But, it won’t be a goodbye, just a see you later. Here is how I plan the last day will go: 

1)eyes open 2)body walks to restroom and brushes teeth 3)goes to watch the sunrise 4)graduates 5)farewell everyone it was nice getting to know you(crying)

I will let you all know if my predictions were correct.

Turns out I am not the best at predicting my future. I mean, no one can really determine what is going to happen tomorrow. Or maybe you can. I don’t know. I don’t know who is actually reading this. But now I must update. 

1)eyes did open!(yay) 2)body DID walk to the restroom and brush teeth!! 3)the sun did not rise 4)I graduated!!! 5)Farewells were said but not much crying was done(I have not accepted it is over yet, I WILL be seeing my SSPmates at Philips tomorrow at 9AM sharp.)

There you have it!!. You cannot predict the future. But, I suppose that’s why we have schedules for everything. Schedules give us some sense of security. Without schedules everything would be chaos(?) and people would live freely. Although people would be free, for that reason they would also be lost. Although we can’t know with certainty what will happen in the future, we can set some hopes. 

So yes, you cannot predict the future. BUTTTT you can guide yourself in a certain direction, a positive one!! My UNC Chapel Hill Astrophysics SSP community has impacted my life in a very positive way. Even when things got really rough and I didn’t know how tomorrow would really turn out, the community persevered!! So there I was, trusting the process.

Trust the process guys i’m now #graduated (from SSP)

About Me:

My name is Brenda and I am from Salinas, California. I enjoy listening to and playing music. I like learning about cosmology. My comfort food is caldo de pollo. My favorite food is a torta de milanesa de res (yum). I like to compose music. I don’t have a favorite color.